it breaks my heart

it kills me to see others put down. it kills me to see this happen in everyday life, lies spoken over peoples lives. why are we so quick to judge?? am guilty of this too. i am quick to judge but i like to think that i would still talk to the person and not put them down. it kills me to see people judge others because they are a different race, or have a retardation, or something about them that they cant change. i make a lot of jokes, but if you hear my jokes its satirical i promise. i have all sorts of friends. that i really consider friends. but it kills me when it hurts someone. and why is it when people go to church, they can be the meanest and most judgemental? "i found jesus now i can judge others because i am great!!" is this the message they are hearing. because ive been hearing a different one. it kills me to see kids be forced to grow up so quickly. i grew up quickly. and now i spend everyday being a kid again. (part of the reason im still single is because boys have cooties...jk...but seriously...lol). it kills me to hear teens have destructive words spoken over them. its hard enough they get it at school, but to get it at home or from adults? what is that teaching them? im glad our God can handle us being upset or even angry. im glad that we are allowed. im glad that it is ok to be mad (just not sin in our anger). :) man when i get to heaven i have so many questions for God. i really think from about 12 to 21-ish is when we are really trying to figure out who WE are and what WE believe. (i think we all struggle with knowing ourselves our whole life, but i think this is really one of the more important times). where do we get this? from our parents. from our friends. from our church. from our peers. parents, and "adults" --- why are we not living our lives like Jesus??? why are we not showing our children how to live? why are we hurting others in church? shouldnt this be a safe place? where everyone is welcome?? one thing that bothers me is people have this idea that they have to be put together. i grew up this way. problems at home were at home, when you went somewhere, you were a happy family and when people asked how you are you said good. im learning to really say how im doing. i'm glad some of the youth can really tell me how they are doing. i think its important to have your life more open. :D ok im tired. not making much sense to myself anymore, and i want to read some Sex God, so good nite all!