blessed

Im feeling so overwhelmed lately. God has truely blessed me with a lot of things. Friends who i consider family, and just a lot of stuff. God knows my path. He knows where i'm straying, He knows where i'm right on path. He knows when i will stray again. I find myself asking why He continues to bless me sooo much. I also cant help but feel happy and warn inside knowing that im not walking alone. God is still teaching me a lot. He's in the process of teaching me HIS way. and not my own. Its hard. My own feelings get in the way alot. This is really hard in the youth group too. Finding where my place is. and in life really right now. Finding where my place is as a friend, as a christian, and as a person in other people's lives. oh growing pains. its hard at times, but miss amanda keeps encouraging me that it is worth it. haha :)

on a separate note, i cant believe how God has blessed me with family. im not talking blood family. well blood of jesus family....hehe. me and my real family always have problems. I miss my dad soo much. and he lives 45 minutes away...me and my mom's dont really get along. (real mom & step mom). Me and my real mom are talking more which is nice, but im always leery of her being nice. My brother and me are getting closer. if i didnt have those people that are in my life now, it would be really hard though. my sisters: amanda, kylie, lisa. my brother petey. i love them all soo much. im really gonna miss petey when he is gone....and missing church has been really hard for me, because I consider them all family too. I love learning. I love hearing Louie teach, but even more than that, i love the people. I can listen to the podcasts. but the podcasts dont give me hugs from my family.

but the point -> Jesus has blessed me soo much over the last 2 years. It was right about 2 years ago that someone told me about this Jesus guy. And not too long after I fell for Him. It was around the end of May 2005, that I started my relationship with Jesus. And ever since the blessings continue to flow.