church everyday

Me and miss amanda are going to be moving in together pretty soon (for a little we are both moving in with nick and kirsten actually too, soooo) we were talking about the fact that we are going to have church everyday. probably a few times a day. what am i talking about?? no, we are not going to sit and do a "bible study" a few times a day. but we will probably see each other every morning. maybe have breakfast. we will watch tv together. dinner on a bunch of nites. movies, parties. i know some may be thinking crazy. thats not church. why not? we dont have to pray everytime we sit with eachother to make it church! i pray constantly, let my life be a prayer, and make it just as strong as my words of prayer. (a secret, i usually dont end prayers when praying to God. I talk to him and then continue on my way. and then i will jump back in to conversation. if he is always with us, why do we feel like we need to close our thoughts?? if your on a road trip with your friend you dont start a story and at the end, say bye.....youre still with them) whew. back to my point....God created us to be in community. when me and amanda and liz sit and watch a movie at our house, jesus is surely going to be there!!! of course there is going to be prayer and such with me and amanda, but i dont think thats what constitutes as church. at my church, there is time to sit and talk, then worship, then teaching, then eating and more talking. i consider the talking just as much church as the teaching! and the words and feelings being shared are not always about jesus....i will have more about things we do for our "church"....

ps. im excited about the whole church taking a month off....i know there is still more discussion on it, but i cant wait to see what happens with it and im looking forward to praying with amanda and seeing what ideas are givin to us! :)

blessed

Im feeling so overwhelmed lately. God has truely blessed me with a lot of things. Friends who i consider family, and just a lot of stuff. God knows my path. He knows where i'm straying, He knows where i'm right on path. He knows when i will stray again. I find myself asking why He continues to bless me sooo much. I also cant help but feel happy and warn inside knowing that im not walking alone. God is still teaching me a lot. He's in the process of teaching me HIS way. and not my own. Its hard. My own feelings get in the way alot. This is really hard in the youth group too. Finding where my place is. and in life really right now. Finding where my place is as a friend, as a christian, and as a person in other people's lives. oh growing pains. its hard at times, but miss amanda keeps encouraging me that it is worth it. haha :)

on a separate note, i cant believe how God has blessed me with family. im not talking blood family. well blood of jesus family....hehe. me and my real family always have problems. I miss my dad soo much. and he lives 45 minutes away...me and my mom's dont really get along. (real mom & step mom). Me and my real mom are talking more which is nice, but im always leery of her being nice. My brother and me are getting closer. if i didnt have those people that are in my life now, it would be really hard though. my sisters: amanda, kylie, lisa. my brother petey. i love them all soo much. im really gonna miss petey when he is gone....and missing church has been really hard for me, because I consider them all family too. I love learning. I love hearing Louie teach, but even more than that, i love the people. I can listen to the podcasts. but the podcasts dont give me hugs from my family.

but the point -> Jesus has blessed me soo much over the last 2 years. It was right about 2 years ago that someone told me about this Jesus guy. And not too long after I fell for Him. It was around the end of May 2005, that I started my relationship with Jesus. And ever since the blessings continue to flow.