so man, i have some stories. (i know i know, surprise surprise)
so i had a date tonite, kind of a blind date, never really met this guy but i saw him once and said "hi", so i kinda know him. funny because i was dating another guy a few weeks ago, and he was a ton of fun and really sweet, but he wasnt good for me. i knew it but liked him. I feel like God really took him away from me, and i wasnt sad. weird, but true. i met this new guy...well its a story on its own. at pure country (my favorite bar) i met a guy named john, real nice guy so he set me up with his roommate, donny. so about donny, hes quiet. almost painfully quiet for me. but hes cute, 20, doesnt drink at all, and he loves Jesus. hes into sports (which im not....but thats ok) and doesnt really watch tv (yay neither do i really!!). im unsure but i kinda like him. so im praying to God, and giving him this possible relationship with this guy. if hes a good guy for me, God will give him to me. If not oh well, there are more out there. hum....im wierd with relationships, sometimes i see i guy thats great, but theres just something that tells me God says no. even when they are good christian guys. i just dont know.....
secondly, i have been praying that God show himself to Kylie. and tonite, the idea of different types of religion came up and she asked if people believed in the same "person" (her words...:) ). so we got to talking about it, and she asked if she was ok. she said that she believes in God (man i was sooo happy, overjoyed, etc, she believes. before went we had talked she was unsure if she believed or not!!!) but she said that she is just someone that needs proof of something. i pray that i help be her proof. she said that she does believe though but is she a bad person for like not going to church and such and just not fully knowing because she doesnt have proof. i told her no. i told her believing was a big step. i dont think its bad to need proof. i think beliving is the first step, then its seeking truth, and in seeking you find proof. its not something that someone can tell you. (read 1 john 2:27 - only the holy spirit can teach you things...not other people so those that dont seek the holy spirit may not see proof because people alone cannot show proof) :) im happy tonite!
one more thing i need prayer for. i hate praying in front of people. i feel like i dont have the words. they are ok in my head and when they come out its aweful. i want to be able to pray and uplift people. i want Jesus to really speak through me. and i need to feel more comfortable. i can tell anyone about Jesus, but praying is really really hard for me. i realized this more than ever when i was with katy and matty on monday nite. we prayed for eachother, but i just didnt feel it. i was nervous in front of two really good friends, and its wierd and i dont like it. soo please pray for me. thanks guys!
im going to bed now, gooooooood nite all!! xoxo
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Has Kylie said what kind of proof she is hoping to have? There may be some things that would answer her questions if she can be specific about what they are.
I'll pray for you about overcoming the fears of praying in front of others.
hum, she was just comparing it to math kinda, how you have steps and written proof that something adds up. as far as God im thinking she needs more than a book that was written thousands of years ago. but really, im not worried. in a few months she went from just not knowing to telling me she does believe. her personality is someone that cannot be pushed into anything, so just talking a little about it is great. she can have someone give her the idea, but she doesnt like being talked into anything. And one hard part is she has had religion pushed on her and her brother before and hates it because of that. with time i know she will come to know Jesus, it may be a little longer though. :)
Hey, a couple of things.
1. For ideas on "proof" and things to possibly mention when it comes up, The Case For Christ and The Case For Faith are really good books if you haven't read them. (I found them useful in similar situations) If you haven't read them and would like to, let me know, and I'll bring them to church for you.
2. I completely understand what you're saying about not being comfortable praying out loud. The first two years after I became a Christian, I had a REALLY hard time with it. And the only thing I can say is that the more you do it, the more comfortable it becomes... I still sometimes think I'm not praying the right things, or the right way, but I know that it's okay because God knows what's in my heart. I'll pray for you that it becomes easier for you quickly! :)
oh man! thanks jeni i would love to borrow them, but just not now. i have like 4 books im trying to read. lol. and still finish school. yeah right! hahaha. thanks for the offer, ill prolly take you up on that offer this summer. :)
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