welome to the madness

SOOOOOOO i'm officially freaking out!!

this weekend i have four foto shoots. yeah thats right, two days, four shoots. three on Saturday and one on sunday. (thank you james for covering powerpoint!!)

ok, saturday, 10am-2pm is the K-9 Karnival!! yeah its a dog show at RC Willeys, benefiting the Cancer Society. We will be taking pictures of the show dogs competing and all other dogs that want a studio setting in our booth....if anyone has a dog, bring it down and stop by and say hi!! :)

at 3pm, I'm headed to Marie's salon for some head shots (yay, we are doing before shots now and then after shots may 20th!!!) so that should be fun and quick.

Then, we are headed to Fernley. There is a barbecue and karaoke competition from 7-10.

THEN SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then Sunday is the race! yay. then monday tuesday wednesday, etc is uploading all these pics! (i dont think i will be at bible study on monday matty...:(........)

I keep praying for patience and smoothness starting at 4pm today when i get off work.

and one last note....i saw my friend Eva last nite, and we are going out to dinner on tuesday!! im excited i havent really talked to her in a while. she doesnt have a phone so she is hard to get a hold of. she has a myspace account which she checks occasionally so we talked mildly through that, and she just told me she is back and working at raleys so i was able to see her!! yay! i love this girl soo much. i have a funny story for another post, my break time is up!

love you all!!

im sick

i hate being sick. it seems like lately i have been sick a lot. like 4 times in the last 7months or so. I've been trying to figure out why. before that i didnt even have a cold for like 2 years. (and worked at a grocery store!! constant germs) I'm convinced that i am allergic to my new boyfriend! lol. ok not really, but i could be.....hum.

so church yesterday was great for me. (not that it is ever bad...) God really spoke to me though. I have really been blessed these last few weeks and i havent given any thanks to God. This really hit me in worship and made me really count my recent blessings. of course i came to God, thanked him, and appaulogized for not giving him thanks earlier. life is great. and i want to give all thanks and glory to God!!

I love watching how God places people in my life and others. when i look at my friends i see that most of them would not hangout together if they were not brought together by me. I have a variety of friends. ive never really fit into a "group". i love growing and learning, and if you stick to the same group of friends, you dont learn as much. ok i think ive had to much medicine and shouldnt be typing a blog....

i'll be back when i have a clear head!

boyfriend or girlfriend

ok, so heres the deal.....i have a new boy, yes it is now official. my roommate/best friend/ sister (yeah kylie) hates him. not dislikes him, hates him. don (my boy) is really shy, and when he talks he tries to be cool and what comes out of his mouth is a little mean. all in joking though. that and he is hard to hold a conversation with when he doesnt know you. so i need help with prayer. i pray that don can learn to show himself to people as himself. hes absolutely great. really sweet. so heres the deal. im not going to lose kylie. but im not gonna give up don. it puts me in a hard place though and whenever don is over at my house it is awkward around kylie. i hate it. i also pray that kylie can see past her stubbornness and try to get to know the don i know.

another little thing i have to vent about it the idea of girl friends. lemme explain. kylie says don is ALWAYS mean to her, and she told me that EVERYONE else sees it but me. this to me means she talked to her friends and they rallyed with her in her complaining. they do this and i hate it. so when i go against them, im kinda singled out. i just hate it. i hate that she uses everyone. i really am if-y still about don, but many people have also said he seems like a nice guy. just REALLY shy. but many have told me that i should try it because hes a sweet guy, and i deserve a sweet guy. (which sounds corny, but i know its true, and i havent really had that in the past - nothing like don)

im just a little down and dont know how to handle this. i dont do drama, so i dont know what to do. all i can do right now is pray. i just hope the power of prayer helps this situation. please be praying for me also guys. :) thanks!

what a nite!

my buddy louie is in a band and last nite he opened for paperboy at NV50! it was their first show!! and they were great! it sounded great!! :) and i had my camera so i have a ton of cool pics of them singing on stage and just chillin. it was a lot of fun though. we were dancing and yay! (btw, me and katy are taking a hip hop dance class so soon i will be awesome at dancing!!) ok so back to the story, my wording my be a little crude so beware to all that read!!!! im serious! we the guy that owns the club also owns all the bunny ranches. soo the wrist bands said "bunny ranch" around them and there was a special VIP area where that guy and all the girls. after my buddy's performance, we went to sit down (the other guys were aweful) and we were sitting right behind that guy and those girls. it made me sick. i was sooo angry!! this guy is old groping on the girls and the girls were aweful too!! ahh, i sat there pissed off and praying to God for each one of them, until i couldnt handle it and me and don left. i had a hard time with that guy (i dont remember his name nor do i care). the girls i prayed that they would see the light someday, and turn to Jesus. but this guy, he was selling girls bodies and lusts after all of them!! hes rich and well, i think i finally found someone that i can hate! i was glad to be surrounded by christians (my whole group of friends :) ) but still. i was glad to go and support my buddy, i just wish i didnt have to support the bunny ranches at the same time by buying the ticket and stuff.....

so other than that, this new guy is cool. hes still quiet, but hes breakin out little by little, and hes still going and doing these thing with me, so its cool. one thing that i love is he really just gives to people. we are always talking about the Jesus question, and well hes full of that. hes sweet. its nice to with him going to church because i can bring him to my church and i can go to his as well. its nice that church is a part of life to him too. im also still unsure about him, but I just keep prayin. we are going rollerskating tonite with my little brother and all his friends. lol. then maybe to the driving range at the hilton. should be fun! alright im out! see most of you tomorrow!

i just cant get enough God!!

so man, i have some stories. (i know i know, surprise surprise)

so i had a date tonite, kind of a blind date, never really met this guy but i saw him once and said "hi", so i kinda know him. funny because i was dating another guy a few weeks ago, and he was a ton of fun and really sweet, but he wasnt good for me. i knew it but liked him. I feel like God really took him away from me, and i wasnt sad. weird, but true. i met this new guy...well its a story on its own. at pure country (my favorite bar) i met a guy named john, real nice guy so he set me up with his roommate, donny. so about donny, hes quiet. almost painfully quiet for me. but hes cute, 20, doesnt drink at all, and he loves Jesus. hes into sports (which im not....but thats ok) and doesnt really watch tv (yay neither do i really!!). im unsure but i kinda like him. so im praying to God, and giving him this possible relationship with this guy. if hes a good guy for me, God will give him to me. If not oh well, there are more out there. hum....im wierd with relationships, sometimes i see i guy thats great, but theres just something that tells me God says no. even when they are good christian guys. i just dont know.....

secondly, i have been praying that God show himself to Kylie. and tonite, the idea of different types of religion came up and she asked if people believed in the same "person" (her words...:) ). so we got to talking about it, and she asked if she was ok. she said that she believes in God (man i was sooo happy, overjoyed, etc, she believes. before went we had talked she was unsure if she believed or not!!!) but she said that she is just someone that needs proof of something. i pray that i help be her proof. she said that she does believe though but is she a bad person for like not going to church and such and just not fully knowing because she doesnt have proof. i told her no. i told her believing was a big step. i dont think its bad to need proof. i think beliving is the first step, then its seeking truth, and in seeking you find proof. its not something that someone can tell you. (read 1 john 2:27 - only the holy spirit can teach you things...not other people so those that dont seek the holy spirit may not see proof because people alone cannot show proof) :) im happy tonite!

one more thing i need prayer for. i hate praying in front of people. i feel like i dont have the words. they are ok in my head and when they come out its aweful. i want to be able to pray and uplift people. i want Jesus to really speak through me. and i need to feel more comfortable. i can tell anyone about Jesus, but praying is really really hard for me. i realized this more than ever when i was with katy and matty on monday nite. we prayed for eachother, but i just didnt feel it. i was nervous in front of two really good friends, and its wierd and i dont like it. soo please pray for me. thanks guys!

im going to bed now, gooooooood nite all!! xoxo

a wonderful weekend

so i got baptized this weekend. and it was weird, i was really nervous. i can stand in front of tons of people and speak or dance around and be silly, but although it was a great happy time i found myself very very nervous. Giving my life to another is just a little scary. I've already given myself to God but being baptized just told everyone else that i was serious about it. Thanks to all those that were there. Very happy time for me. i was really glad to have my family there too. I was excited to introduce my church family with my immediate family. And Kylie came which was great!! She is soo supportive, and although shes not ready for church right now, its amazing how much Jesus she has in her without knowing it. :) I pray that God will show her His way. :) Thanks for all your support though, its hard for me to take compliments usually, but i do enjoy the love that is shown. and i wasnt at college group, but my highlight was being surrounded by family while giving myself to Christ. :) life is still just grand!

final thoughts before bedtime!

so tomorrows the big day. (well technically today, its morning now). im a little nervous but i know im ready. im getting baptized!!!!! its cool to because my parents are coming up, and my bro. and my friend marissa may come and watch me! shes awesome and it was really cool of her to ask to come and watch.

on another note, this last week was great. i went out dancing tuesday nite and learned a new line dance and then wednesday nite after youth group, i went to a movie nite with a new group of people i met at pure country. they're fun! crazy, and high energy, and just good people! its great.

this weekend was fun too. always interesting, and never the same. im selling my dirtbike... :( but im getting a newer one. ive had my bike for years and love it, its just getting old and needs a little tlc. i test rode a bike today honda 250x and really liked it. and my dad is gonna help me make it street legal to so i can drive it around a reno a little to peoples houses and stuff!! yay. so today i spent a lot of time with my dad, cleaning up the bike and makin sure it is in good condition. (almost made me wanna keep it til i rode the other one)

well thats all, im going to bed, tomorrows gonna come too quickly. goodnite all, see most of you at church tomorrow. xoxo