well its 240 in the morning....and i cant sleep. yes im tired but my throat hurts, my head hurts and my eyes are alittle swollen. yeah i think im allergic to myself. so anyways....i figured i would write a little blog about my random thoughts at 240 in the morning. keep that in mind while reading. lol
i dont know how many of you watch supercross, but ricky carmichael is a racer and used illegal fuel and was caught so he was pentalized 25 points. good news to me because i just dont like him and he was in the lead, so yay. well no, last week they decided to give him his points back and fine him 20,000!!! ahhhh. now he is back in the lead. makes me a little sad. i just want someone else to beat him. hum.
i called in sick yesterday. i hate calling in sick, but i was completey unable to talk and i answer phones all day.....just wasnt gonna work. so i figured as long as i wasnt going to work i was sleeping. i have been overly tired lately though. im not a sleeper. if i get 6 or 7 hours a nite im good. really. but yesterday i couldnt stay awake for more than 4 hours without falling asleep again. so i pretty much slept all day yesterday.
im home sick. i miss my dad. me and the rest of my family got in a fight a few weeks ago, and well ive never been able to be mad at my dad for anything, me and my bro made up but my mom (actually stepmom) said something that really hurt. im wanting an appalogy but know i wont get it. ive already forgiven, but still want the recognition that what she said was wrong and mean. but i really just wanna go home and have homemade spagetti, help my dad in the garage, watch movies and pass out on the couch. i really miss my dad.
im hungry but dont know what i want to eat. pasta really sounds good now that im reminising about spagetti. well i actually dont think im hungry but i cant pass up the idea of food. yeah i want pasta, and bread with lots of butter on it. ummmm.
i dont know what im doing anymore, i feel lost. i had a plan coming out of highschool and stuck to it for 2 years, then over the last 7 months, i dont know what my plan is. im very spontanious, but i like to have life plans to stick to so i have a feeling of accomplishment. im just not feeling dedicated to anything.
and lastly for tonite, april 2nd. im gonna be baptized. never been before, and i just cant wait. i feel that God is really talking to me in this area and asking me to do it. i keep reading different passages on baptism and agree with every one. i feel like this is my time to be reborn again in christ.
well its 3 now, and im gonna try to get alittle sleep. love you all, xoxoxo
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If your throat gets really sore, go get some antibiotics. You may have what my kids have had this week. They didn't get better until they started taking medication.
Congratulations on getting baptized!
yeah i will today, thanks georgia. i hate any kind of medicine, but i need something. :)
Anybody ever tell you you have a good heart and a fine mind?
I'll bet so, but it's probably 'bout time somebody said so. So I will.
thanks John, i needed that :)
Welcome to the club on feeling lost. I've been there, out and back again a few times. Cool thing is you now have someone in our life that leads the lost. One of the many things that helped me was just staying involved with friends who know Jesus. They will root you on in ways non-believers can't. I promise. I've been there. Keep doing something because God can work with that. Hope you feel better.
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