God is Good

God makes all things good. God makes mistakes good in the end. (well He is capable of that) tonite was great at bible study and louie and joni's. everyone was full of thirst for knowledge and it was great. lately we have been reading alot without a lot of discussion but tonite we read about 3 paragraphs and we had soo many good conversations. makes me really happy. we talked about promises God has for us and how long we are supposed to wait and how to wait. mainly how to wait. God promised me a family. And im ready for one. (well not ready for the full family but ready to date that guy that i could have a family with someday) but it seems that guys pass through my life and i just havent found that guy that i see myself with. theres always something that doesnt fit. i've been seeing a guy lately...and hes sweet and nice, but not one that i will be with for my life. we havent talked in a few days and i have been a little down about it (ya know that typical what did i do...) but i realized tonite that i have Jesus. and that is the best guy to have. and "soon" (God's words..lol) i will have a guy that i can grow with in life and have a family with. im just soo happy tonite. life is good. I havent felt this good in a while. and louie, no im not taking that job, i would miss out on too much stuff that i love. God showed me tonite what i need to do. and the job doesnt fit.

also, im sooo excited to get baptised. i really cant wait. ive known Jesus for about a year and a half now, and its great. when i started going to hillside i didnt know who He was. i didnt know if He was God, or God's son, or what the deal with Jesus was. and know i know Him. :) i cant wait to be re-born in him. Jesus is the love of my life. although ive only had a relationship with Him for a little over a year now, im thankful He's been there since before i was born. right by my side. :) life is grand!

Thanks to all of you for your love. i couldnt ask for a better church family and im truely blessed to have each one of you!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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man, life is good. and confusing. and unknown. and i dont know. so here goes another random, pointless post.

today i ditched work to go snowboarding. it was great!! went to northstar, and i kicked butt. (mind you this is my first season, so i did good, but still not like pro)i went in the terrain park with my friend and decided to give it a try. i did a box, yeah thats right. so it was small, like 2 ft long and like 7 inches off the ground....but i did it without crashing!! then were the jumps, well i ate it off of nearly everyone. then i decided on the second run through i wanted to do a 180 off a jump....so i attempted it, and slid face first down the other side of the jump...lol it was great! maybe next time ill make it.

next, is jobs, i love my job, but im thinking about moving up with another company. i answer phones now and do some tech support, but mainly i answer phones. this new job i would be a tech. soo theres a plus. down side is the new job is swing shift. plus side it is 4 10's. not sure if i get weekends off and stuff which would be a big issue. but then it is here in reno and that would save me hundreds on gas every month. so i dont know. how bad is swing shift guys?? i think i need to apply for it. btw. the shifts are either sun-wed or wed-sat. the hours are 430pm-3am. i would miss youth on wed, and maybe sunday nites bible study. i just dont know. any thoughts guys? (i dont know pay difference yet either)

on a side note, im getting a new couch tomorrow. free from a friends family member. yeah im stoked! its a nice one too. soo its great. i cleaned my house and im ready for it, now i need someone to help me move it into my house and it will be sweet!

"Did you think you were immune to this"

WOW!!! It's amazing when God really talks to you.

So tonite i went to the youth bible study at the church and btw petey was speaking and did FABULOUS!!!! yay petey, really you did great!! (all the kids loved you too, they told me so!!)

so, tonite there was a girl that was just having a bad day. (a bad week really) and i could tell. ive been there and saw how she was feeling so i decided to talk to her. She's going through a rough time and well, i could relate to her well. Ya know when you are going through a rough time and every little thing seems to go wrong, and the littlest thing can bring you to tears even if it is silly and trivial, this is her now. Her highlight: coming to church!

so the title of my blog is the first line to the song "love heals your heart" by third day. this song reminded me of the girl and what we were talking about. there are so many lyrics in the song that are just perfect for life. and its troubles. one line says, "everybody has a wall to climb". it really makes me think that problems we go through are like giant walls. at first we know they are big, but it is still laughable, like ur standing in front of it, playfully pretending to jump over it. then you realize you have to climb it. hum. it gets harder and harder until finaly you are in tears because you cant get over. and ur trapped. everything makes you cry now, even barely scrapping your finger on the wall. the hardest part is pulling yourself over, but when you finally reach the other side, it is like the wall was nothing. Eventually we all make it over the wall, but it is easier when there are two rather than one trying to get over. Here enters Jesus. The wall is still as bad, but with Jesus helping you over it makes it a little easier. (still hard though).

so thats my thoughts and the words God gave me for tonite. I will be praying for the girl and keep her in my prayers!!!!! Love her to death and hope that God shows his love to her too. like the name of the song i've been quoting, "Love Heals Your Heart". Please add her to your prayers as well!! God Bless!!!

randomness.....

well its 240 in the morning....and i cant sleep. yes im tired but my throat hurts, my head hurts and my eyes are alittle swollen. yeah i think im allergic to myself. so anyways....i figured i would write a little blog about my random thoughts at 240 in the morning. keep that in mind while reading. lol

i dont know how many of you watch supercross, but ricky carmichael is a racer and used illegal fuel and was caught so he was pentalized 25 points. good news to me because i just dont like him and he was in the lead, so yay. well no, last week they decided to give him his points back and fine him 20,000!!! ahhhh. now he is back in the lead. makes me a little sad. i just want someone else to beat him. hum.

i called in sick yesterday. i hate calling in sick, but i was completey unable to talk and i answer phones all day.....just wasnt gonna work. so i figured as long as i wasnt going to work i was sleeping. i have been overly tired lately though. im not a sleeper. if i get 6 or 7 hours a nite im good. really. but yesterday i couldnt stay awake for more than 4 hours without falling asleep again. so i pretty much slept all day yesterday.

im home sick. i miss my dad. me and the rest of my family got in a fight a few weeks ago, and well ive never been able to be mad at my dad for anything, me and my bro made up but my mom (actually stepmom) said something that really hurt. im wanting an appalogy but know i wont get it. ive already forgiven, but still want the recognition that what she said was wrong and mean. but i really just wanna go home and have homemade spagetti, help my dad in the garage, watch movies and pass out on the couch. i really miss my dad.

im hungry but dont know what i want to eat. pasta really sounds good now that im reminising about spagetti. well i actually dont think im hungry but i cant pass up the idea of food. yeah i want pasta, and bread with lots of butter on it. ummmm.

i dont know what im doing anymore, i feel lost. i had a plan coming out of highschool and stuck to it for 2 years, then over the last 7 months, i dont know what my plan is. im very spontanious, but i like to have life plans to stick to so i have a feeling of accomplishment. im just not feeling dedicated to anything.

and lastly for tonite, april 2nd. im gonna be baptized. never been before, and i just cant wait. i feel that God is really talking to me in this area and asking me to do it. i keep reading different passages on baptism and agree with every one. i feel like this is my time to be reborn again in christ.

well its 3 now, and im gonna try to get alittle sleep. love you all, xoxoxo

my bible study

my friend katie got me a bible study book for christmas and we decided that we want to do it together. problem: our schedules are opposite, and we really have no time together. so i decided to make it a blog, we can talk when each of us gets a chance and others can do it with us too!!

so lately it seems like me and katie are just trying to find ourselves. and it is a little hard. hopefully this bible study will help us and others in finding who they are and who God wants them to be.

Take a look at the blog, add to it, join in if ya want, i want this to be a nice discussion and the more views the better!! :)

http://www.walkthewalkyoutalk.blogspot.com

xooxoxoxoxoxo

bible verse of the day

So i have a mac and i have widgets on my mac. They are just little mini programs that can let you view different things quickly (to to mac.com and look for widgets there are a ton, from weather to email to daily words). anways so i have a bible verse of the day on there and i love reading it everyday. Some verses i've heard and others i havent. todays was a good one. At church Louie has been talking about Truth. and what is real Truth. This verse reminded me of real truth and i believe louie shared it the week before last...

John 14:1-7
1 “Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. 2 In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also. 4 And you know the way to where I am going.” 5 Thomas said to him, “Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?” 6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you had known me, you would have known my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him.”

i love to know that through Jesus, I have a place in heaven just as Jesus does. I like the analogy of a giant house. although it is big, there is a place just for me. my very own room in the kingdom!! :) I also like this because of the fact that Jesus is our way to truth, life and to God. Sometimes God seems a little intimidating to me. I know he loves me but i can't help to be intimidated. Jesus is my best friend really. i feel comfortable talking and sharing, and never feel overpowered by him. Im thankful that God gave us His son. Im also thankful that i have Jesus, Himself, living in me everyday. This is the Good News!!!

Love you all!!

Fotography!!!

So as some of you know, i started my own fotography business with my roommate/sister, Kylie. And so far its a lot of fun. I've been missing some church which is hard, but with the online files i can still listen. :)

so this weekend we headed to marysville ca, for a local motocross event. I love motocross and it is great to be able to take pictures. We stayed with my grandparents. Thanks to those who have prayed for my grandpa. He is doing good and looks good. he was up and walkin around, and in good spirits, just like he always is!! He has been undergoing chemotherapy and just got shingles. so its hard right now, but hes doing great!!

me and kylie didnt get track permission to take pictures yet for this race. but we went anyways hoping that it would all work out. and it did perfectly. we were scared we were gonna drive all the way there and have them deny us, and turn back around and come home. but no. they were awsome and really nice. its funny how many christians you see at a motocross race. before they sang the national anthem, they said a prayer. how cool is that??!! that was definately a highlight (since i didnt get home intime for college group now you know what my highlight was...)

It was a great race though, two people were hauled away in an ambulance, one with broken ribs and leg, and the other with a broken arm i think. scary at times, especially when you are close to the crash and know you need to run on the track and stand in front of the injured rider til the flaggers and medical staff can come. but those were the only bad crashes. The little kids are fun because when they fall over they just stand next to the bike and wait for someone to help them up. and i think every 50cc and 60cc bike i picked up and started, started differently and was geared different. ahh. some kicked forward others backwards. it was fun helpin them though. :)

there was another fotographer out there too, he was at the last one also, but hes awesome. really nice. me and kylie are gonna print a nice pic of him (he also races in the 40+ class) overall we were blessed to run into so many great people at these events, check out some of the fotos!! www.flipflopfotography.com

love you all, God bless, and good nite!

Rockin' and Rollin'

So i just want to write and give props to a great artist. Shawn Lear. Shawn, just want you to know that i love listening to you and your worship team!! i get lost in your songs, its something about ur style that i love! When i am worshiping with you, i feel just like im at a casting crowns concert. or maybe dilerious, or even third day!!!! Shawn you rock, and God truely blessed you with your voice and talent!!! Even if you dont make it big, you'll always be big to our church. You're Hillside's rockstar!

(he was singin tonite at youth group, just made me remember how much i love his singing)

trouble in toon's town

ok sooo this blog this may be a bad idea for me. i love typing journal type things, but ive never actually kept a journal. Tonite i have a story a little more on the serious side, although i know it is out of character... So here's my story:

The weekend before last, i went out to ferntucky (fernley) to take pics of the motorcyle race out there. and we made a big plan for my brother to come out and bring is trailer so we could camp (we is me, my bro, kylie, and her little bro). So i call him saterday morning and he tells me he may not come out because he is buying a truck. soooo i got a little upset, because here i was the day of the race, and gonna have to go back home and not camp now. so i called my dad. he said that steve (my bro) would be out there it would just be later after he got his truck. ok. no prob. but as the day goes on, i didnt know the status, matt (kylies bro) was waiting at home for steve to pick him up....we called him a few more times to see the status of him comming out, what time when if how why etc...so to make a long story short, he got frustrated by the 10 phone calls that day and decided not to come out at all. AHHH wanted to scream, but thank GOD for my roommate, she turned it into a positive, we came home and then went out golfing, had a good time just hanging out. (and matt came up with another one of his friends). So i was a little mad, but i got over it, no sense in staying mad.

today was the first time i've talked to my parents and brother since, and went i went down to their house i was chewed out for being in the wrong and for being selfish in my thoughts that saterday. i really dont feel like i was, but finally ended up frustrated and tried to end the conversation with i dont care, im sorry i'm sure i am a little in the wrong....blah blah blah. (im sure with a little attitude, ill admit it) so it ended with my mom (really step mom, really confusing...i dont expect anyone to understand) saying i was selfish, and compared me to my real mom (i dont get along with my real mom at all, and well i dont think very highly of her at times, although our relationship is getting better slowly)

so my point to this blog, is what to do now. do i suck it up, appologize for something i dont feel i am wrong for? Do i wait for my family to come around to me?? Even my dad is upset at me and that is a first for me ever. im just a little unraveled by this, but again, thanks tp kylie i can sleep in good spirits. I thank God for her everyday.

"sounds like someone has a case of the mondays"

well it was definately a monday, first thing at work today i spent 5 minutes explaining to a lady over the phone what the shift key was.....frustrating because at the end of the conversation i gave up and just told her to keep using the cap locks key as a shift key.....

so today was long, one of my co-workers had food posioning the nite before and he looked bad today so i sent him home and covered his shift too. not too much longer but still. i still had to go grocery shopping which i love. i really do, my roommate kylie makes it a lot of fun and there is never a dull moment at the walmart. we have a self checkout record, 89 items, $179, and all in 12 minutes. check out the pic of it on my myspace: www.myspace.com/littledebi
so we are out of food and so was walmart, so we didnt even have 50 items, bummer but the total was exactly $100 which was cool. our new thing is to sign our names with our left hand, its funny. we also got some stuff for our business and we did self checkout in spanish (no neither of us knows spanish) and then she signed my name, in spanish lol!!! it was debio garrezo, and with her left hand!! good times.

when we got home we set up the camping chairs we bought in the living room, sat and chatted for a little while watchin some tv. i love it! that was my nite, im beat and going to bed. hittin it a little early tonite, maybe tomorrow ill get up early and do my hair...maybe.

My First Blog

Well, ok here i go, i do a lot and a lot of people seem to be on here so i fell into the blog trap. that and i love to talk and well here i am. So tonite i played Jaime at fooseball, and well, i may have lost a little.......so as much as i like to talk i really am awful at fooseball, but i love to play it!! soo its late and i have work early tomorrow so im out!