all eyes on you??

God's been talking to me...man has He ever!!! I wanted to share with what He is sharing with me, and its truely life changing to me.

I help out with youth, and i have quite a few friends. What God has been showing me though is I am to be an example. now you're prolly thinking of course thats what he calls all of us to do! but what i wasnt realizing is the kids i see every wednesday and sunday are watching my every move. they are listening to my every word. I think others my own age and older are too. There is truth that when you have Jesus in you, there is something different in you. And the curiousity makes people watch you. not in a way to try to find a flaw, but rather to figure out what it is you have.

God has got me thinking about the people I look to. sometimes it is friends like my friend Amanda. but there are also a few ladies in the church that I look up to. I find myself listening to them and watching what they are doing. they have that special Jesus thing. I cant help but think how disappointed I would be to have one of them really started to fail and go against God's word. (i mean in a big way too, i know everyone sins...and no one is perfect)

I've gotten to know some of the girls in youth really really well and I want to keep them in my life for years to come. I want them to come to me with problems or questions if they dont feel they can talk to their parents or like no one understands. and when they come to me with questions i want to be strong enough in my life that i can use my experiences as stories of strength and truely be a role model for them. It made me think, i need to watch my words and actions so that i can be an open book to those girls without any feelings of shame.

Similarly, i need to do the same for my friends. I recently had a friend ask me to pray for her because she feels the devil is attacking her. I never thought she would ask me something like that. it was nice.

Who do you look up to? Why? Who looks up to you? Who is watching you? I think everyone has someone they are watching and someone watching them. :)