So last Sunday my friend Louie talked about forgiving other and how important it is. He read the story about the Unforgiving Debtor. I have heard this story a bunch of times but it never kicked my ass like it did Sunday. Here's the part that killed me... (Matthew 18:34-35)"Then the angry king sent the man to prison to be tortured until he had paid his debt. 'That's what my heavenly Father will do to you if you refuse to forgive your brothers and sisters from your heart.'"
It scared me a little and it made me realize that I have a ton of unforgiveness inside of me. I don't want that! So then my thought process was how to I get rid of this...pray...yeah, but when I was talking to my friends about it, I made a comment like "how do I start forgiving someone I hate? I hate hearing their name, and I have nothing nice to say about them." One of my friends said "sounds like there is a lot of uglyness inside of you..."
So here's my thoughts today, maybe the beginning of forgiving is not hating. I've been realizing, its so draining/unhealthy to hate, but the more you do it, the easier it is, but it is still very bad. But I have been realizing its not about what they have done to me as much as what is going on inside of me. I can control me only. When I was talking to my friends I wasn't expecting the problem to be me...I was expecting that maybe I need to learn to tolerate them better for being so mean, or something like that. nope...its all me.
So I'm gonna try to blog about my process...right now it looks like this: I'm not going to speak those negative words. And I have people to hold me accountable if I do. :D
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Honeymoon Trip
Ok so, I thought I just better write a blog about everything that happened on our trip! it was so fun, and we had some crazy moments too so, if you are feeling ambitious, read on! :D
Ok, so we went down to LA saw lots of family in a couple days, and then had my family take me down to the Port.
ok so day 1, getting on the boat, super exciting! we had no problems getting to the port or on the boat, and our "apple juice" was still in our suitcase when we got to our room. Our room was a small inside cabin, but it wasnt really that bad. The following day was a day at sea, so we spent it exploring the ship, dancing at night and singing Karaoke.
Our first Port was Cabo San Lucas. We really liked Cabo, and didnt have any problems here. We walked to the main beach from the boat, it was about a 20 minute walk, and rented a double ocean kayak for the day. We paddled to the otherside of the bay to a place called Lover's Beach. It was a cool beach, calm on one side and crazy on the other. We also went in this rock cove kinda thing, with big waves and sea lions, it was pretty cool. so we swam around and then took the kayak back. Then we went to a place on the beach for tacos, ceviche and beers and margaritas. GOOD FOOD! expensive thought, but good.
Our second Port was Acapulco. where do I start....I had decided to parasail here. So we walked down the beach found someone who was doing that, and made a deal with them. They told us we had to wait for some more wind, and finally the wind came up enough. So they brought the boat and took us out to a platform about 300 feet out from the shore. I decided to go first. So they hooked me all up, and told me how everything worked. I ran off the platform and was up in the air for about 15 seconds....then the boat died...which meant that I was headed straight for the ocean. And remember, we are in Mexico, so no one can to my rescue, I sat in the ocean for 15-20 minutes while the guy "fixed the boat". I was finally dragged back into the boat, and then he had to "fix the boat" again so we could make it to the platform. Once on the platform, one of the guys started laying out the parachute again for round two...I was screaming at him, and finally got him to take us back to shore. We got our money back and headed down the beach. We had given up on the idea of parasailing, and decided it was more beer money, but then decided to try it again. We watched a couple people go before us, and then went, this time with no problems, and I made Petey go first...lol. After that we found a cool place with mini huts you sit under and had tacos, ceviche and beers, on the beach.
Our third Port was Huatulco (pronounced Wah-tool-co, but we just called it hauk a loogy....by this point, we were over mexico. It was soooo expensive, and you get so hassled to buy crap or go on tours that we were just over it. Huatulco is a really small town, and we walked it in about 5 minutes, and decided to sit on the beach instead of exploring, and drink beer all day. There was one beach with lots of lounge chair with umbrellas. So we sat at one, and a guy came over and told us we had to pay $10 to sit there...so we sat on the beach in front of the chairs until Petey decided to go find one we could sit at for free. He found one. :D So we sat, drank beers, ate some tacos, and bought new rings. I really wanted a ring that I could wear camping, or somewhere that I think there is a high chance for me to loose it. I'd rather loose a $20 ring from Mexico. So yes, both got new real silver rings, for pretty cheap. I also laid out all day in the sun, and had fallen asleep at one point so i had a very nice sunburn for a couple days.
Then that night I woke myself up kicking my legs, and by morning we had realized we had bites all over our legs. I had close to 20 petey had at least 10...turns out they are sand mites, that were in the sand in Huatulco. They itched and irritated our skin for the rest of the trip (and i still have some scabs from mine...)
Ok, our fourth Port was Costa Rica. This is the one I was most excited about and I was not disappointed. We had a guy pick us (and some others) up from the Port and take us to see Monkeys, Crocodiles, and Tucans. We also went zip-lining, which was soooo fun! the only bad part about that is there were a lot of people for the zip-line place, so we had about 25 other people and about 5 employees taking us through it. so it took a long time. but it was really fun! After that we went to a restaurant and had a "Costa Rican" meal. Fish, rice, veggies. YUMMY! it was really really good. Then we headed back to the ship. We were originally supposed to go to a market but the zip-line took too long, so we weren't able to go to the market place. and Costa Rica is way cheaper than Mexico so we might have been able to do a little shopping...but it was still great. There is a couple that went on the tour with us, that needs mentioning. She was originally from New York, and currently lived in one of those states, close by with her boyfriend. She was Asian, so she had a winy voice (pertinent i promise!). She was not the brightest crayon in the box, and really wanted to be our friend...She asked us where we were from, we said Reno. Her response "oh yeah I've heard of that place! It's in Phoenix right!?"....we responded with..."uh...Phoenix is a city in Arizona...Reno is in Nevada...." she says "That's right! I've never been good with Geography...." really...? lol. well there were lots of other funny things with that couple but that was the best one.
Ok, next was one of the coolest too - The Panama Canal -
It was an early morning, the day started around 5:30am. We got to go under the bridge of the Americas and then through the Canal. So when a ship goes through the Canal, a captain comes on each ship to navigate the ship through. We also had a guy who was narrating for us (in American English!) Also, Panama city is HUGE! I knew they had some skyscrapers and all, but its a huge city. So anyways, when we went through the canal there was another ship next to us when we were going through the locks. so we got to see them go through as well as our own ship. VERY COOL! Also, in the middle of the locks is Gatun (spelling??) Lake. It is a man made lake that is filled by all the rain from the rain forest. The coolest thing about this lake, is there are no buildings on it (minus a couple just past the locks for canal buildings (and a prison..) But building is restricted because they want the rain forest to continue to fill the lake and fuel the canal locks (since its all gravity operated). So it is very cool to see rain forest islands and areas all around you, with NO buildings, NO resorts, or anything. very cool. Also, the amount for a ship to go through the canal varies and is based on size and weight. Our ship was estimated to have been charged about $300,000 to use the canal! The cheapest was a guy who swam the canal and was charged .70, (i think, i know its close to that...under a dollar...) It took us most of the day to get through the canal.
That night I got food poisoning from dinner on the ship....
The next day was Columbia. I woke up, and couldn't even keep watermelon down. Petey went to try to get me some medicine, but they needed me to go down to the medical center...I could barley make it back to bed, so when i could i just slept. Around 1pm I was able to keep some watermelon down, and wanted to get off the boat and see Columbia because I'd probably never go back to visit. So we got off...with plenty of water for me. We found a guy who was taking a bunch of people to the old town of Cartegena, and we were told he would drop us off and take us back 3 hours later. sounded good to me since i was certain i would need walking breaks. When we got to the old town, he decided he knew the town well, and wanted to walk us around. Fine. It was actually really awesome, and he was great (you couldn't tell from my face though I'm sure...he at one point asked if I was ok, and if this was an ok tour...it was it was great, my stomach was just arguing with my body the whole time... We ended at the hard rock and Petey had some beers, and I had soda. Cartegena is a beautiful city. lots of poverty though and more police/military than I have ever seen before. There is lots of attacks and crime because of the drug cartel and its really sad to see how they live and the things that happen to them. There is a wall surrounding the old city (to protect it back in the day) and we got to walk along part of it. It's made out of coral and maybe concrete...who knows. They guys said it was coral though and you could see the coral in it. Cool stuff.
Then we had two days at sea, and then our final stop and where we got off...Miami.
The cruise itself was ok. The hot tubs were broken the whole cruise...and although lots of people told us they were broken, one person accidentally told us they do routine maintenance on them and our cruise was selected for that...awesome. Another bummer is we were woken up almost every night around 1-2 in the morning to a loud banging noise. it sounded as if there was someone above us lifting and dropping a large dresser over and over for a couple hours every night. The first half of the cruise they told us it was maintenance...the second half, they had no idea what it was. so who knows. Not lots of service on the cruise, and the front desk can't actually help with anything so it was frustrating. The food was ok. nothing to write home about. I'll probably never cruise with Norwegian again, but oh well.
We did meet some fun people though. We met a brother and a sister who live in Guatemala, and who we hope to really visit someday. There was another couple who lives in Seattle who were really cool people. We hope to see them too when we are up in Seattle. (now that we have people who we consider family up there we will probably be up there a lot anyways). And there was some more people that were interesting/funny/fun.
Overall a great trip. And me and Petey still get along great, so you know it was a good trip! lol. It makes it way easier when you are traveling with someone you like, it makes an ok trip a good one. :D
So that's basically the trip, I'll have to add pics later hopefully.
The trip home was uneventful. Everything worked out fine. I don't think I will ever go to Miami though. People are very unhappy, mean people. but our flights were great, and our friends picked us up from the airport, no problems with baggage, etc. We drove home the following day after flying in, and drove back in the blizzard...close to 2 feet of snow in Carson and negative temperatures...quite a change from the tropical vacation but it's good to be back home.
Ok, so we went down to LA saw lots of family in a couple days, and then had my family take me down to the Port.
ok so day 1, getting on the boat, super exciting! we had no problems getting to the port or on the boat, and our "apple juice" was still in our suitcase when we got to our room. Our room was a small inside cabin, but it wasnt really that bad. The following day was a day at sea, so we spent it exploring the ship, dancing at night and singing Karaoke.
Our first Port was Cabo San Lucas. We really liked Cabo, and didnt have any problems here. We walked to the main beach from the boat, it was about a 20 minute walk, and rented a double ocean kayak for the day. We paddled to the otherside of the bay to a place called Lover's Beach. It was a cool beach, calm on one side and crazy on the other. We also went in this rock cove kinda thing, with big waves and sea lions, it was pretty cool. so we swam around and then took the kayak back. Then we went to a place on the beach for tacos, ceviche and beers and margaritas. GOOD FOOD! expensive thought, but good.
Our second Port was Acapulco. where do I start....I had decided to parasail here. So we walked down the beach found someone who was doing that, and made a deal with them. They told us we had to wait for some more wind, and finally the wind came up enough. So they brought the boat and took us out to a platform about 300 feet out from the shore. I decided to go first. So they hooked me all up, and told me how everything worked. I ran off the platform and was up in the air for about 15 seconds....then the boat died...which meant that I was headed straight for the ocean. And remember, we are in Mexico, so no one can to my rescue, I sat in the ocean for 15-20 minutes while the guy "fixed the boat". I was finally dragged back into the boat, and then he had to "fix the boat" again so we could make it to the platform. Once on the platform, one of the guys started laying out the parachute again for round two...I was screaming at him, and finally got him to take us back to shore. We got our money back and headed down the beach. We had given up on the idea of parasailing, and decided it was more beer money, but then decided to try it again. We watched a couple people go before us, and then went, this time with no problems, and I made Petey go first...lol. After that we found a cool place with mini huts you sit under and had tacos, ceviche and beers, on the beach.
Our third Port was Huatulco (pronounced Wah-tool-co, but we just called it hauk a loogy....by this point, we were over mexico. It was soooo expensive, and you get so hassled to buy crap or go on tours that we were just over it. Huatulco is a really small town, and we walked it in about 5 minutes, and decided to sit on the beach instead of exploring, and drink beer all day. There was one beach with lots of lounge chair with umbrellas. So we sat at one, and a guy came over and told us we had to pay $10 to sit there...so we sat on the beach in front of the chairs until Petey decided to go find one we could sit at for free. He found one. :D So we sat, drank beers, ate some tacos, and bought new rings. I really wanted a ring that I could wear camping, or somewhere that I think there is a high chance for me to loose it. I'd rather loose a $20 ring from Mexico. So yes, both got new real silver rings, for pretty cheap. I also laid out all day in the sun, and had fallen asleep at one point so i had a very nice sunburn for a couple days.
Then that night I woke myself up kicking my legs, and by morning we had realized we had bites all over our legs. I had close to 20 petey had at least 10...turns out they are sand mites, that were in the sand in Huatulco. They itched and irritated our skin for the rest of the trip (and i still have some scabs from mine...)
Ok, our fourth Port was Costa Rica. This is the one I was most excited about and I was not disappointed. We had a guy pick us (and some others) up from the Port and take us to see Monkeys, Crocodiles, and Tucans. We also went zip-lining, which was soooo fun! the only bad part about that is there were a lot of people for the zip-line place, so we had about 25 other people and about 5 employees taking us through it. so it took a long time. but it was really fun! After that we went to a restaurant and had a "Costa Rican" meal. Fish, rice, veggies. YUMMY! it was really really good. Then we headed back to the ship. We were originally supposed to go to a market but the zip-line took too long, so we weren't able to go to the market place. and Costa Rica is way cheaper than Mexico so we might have been able to do a little shopping...but it was still great. There is a couple that went on the tour with us, that needs mentioning. She was originally from New York, and currently lived in one of those states, close by with her boyfriend. She was Asian, so she had a winy voice (pertinent i promise!). She was not the brightest crayon in the box, and really wanted to be our friend...She asked us where we were from, we said Reno. Her response "oh yeah I've heard of that place! It's in Phoenix right!?"....we responded with..."uh...Phoenix is a city in Arizona...Reno is in Nevada...." she says "That's right! I've never been good with Geography...." really...? lol. well there were lots of other funny things with that couple but that was the best one.
Ok, next was one of the coolest too - The Panama Canal -
It was an early morning, the day started around 5:30am. We got to go under the bridge of the Americas and then through the Canal. So when a ship goes through the Canal, a captain comes on each ship to navigate the ship through. We also had a guy who was narrating for us (in American English!) Also, Panama city is HUGE! I knew they had some skyscrapers and all, but its a huge city. So anyways, when we went through the canal there was another ship next to us when we were going through the locks. so we got to see them go through as well as our own ship. VERY COOL! Also, in the middle of the locks is Gatun (spelling??) Lake. It is a man made lake that is filled by all the rain from the rain forest. The coolest thing about this lake, is there are no buildings on it (minus a couple just past the locks for canal buildings (and a prison..) But building is restricted because they want the rain forest to continue to fill the lake and fuel the canal locks (since its all gravity operated). So it is very cool to see rain forest islands and areas all around you, with NO buildings, NO resorts, or anything. very cool. Also, the amount for a ship to go through the canal varies and is based on size and weight. Our ship was estimated to have been charged about $300,000 to use the canal! The cheapest was a guy who swam the canal and was charged .70, (i think, i know its close to that...under a dollar...) It took us most of the day to get through the canal.
That night I got food poisoning from dinner on the ship....
The next day was Columbia. I woke up, and couldn't even keep watermelon down. Petey went to try to get me some medicine, but they needed me to go down to the medical center...I could barley make it back to bed, so when i could i just slept. Around 1pm I was able to keep some watermelon down, and wanted to get off the boat and see Columbia because I'd probably never go back to visit. So we got off...with plenty of water for me. We found a guy who was taking a bunch of people to the old town of Cartegena, and we were told he would drop us off and take us back 3 hours later. sounded good to me since i was certain i would need walking breaks. When we got to the old town, he decided he knew the town well, and wanted to walk us around. Fine. It was actually really awesome, and he was great (you couldn't tell from my face though I'm sure...he at one point asked if I was ok, and if this was an ok tour...it was it was great, my stomach was just arguing with my body the whole time... We ended at the hard rock and Petey had some beers, and I had soda. Cartegena is a beautiful city. lots of poverty though and more police/military than I have ever seen before. There is lots of attacks and crime because of the drug cartel and its really sad to see how they live and the things that happen to them. There is a wall surrounding the old city (to protect it back in the day) and we got to walk along part of it. It's made out of coral and maybe concrete...who knows. They guys said it was coral though and you could see the coral in it. Cool stuff.
Then we had two days at sea, and then our final stop and where we got off...Miami.
The cruise itself was ok. The hot tubs were broken the whole cruise...and although lots of people told us they were broken, one person accidentally told us they do routine maintenance on them and our cruise was selected for that...awesome. Another bummer is we were woken up almost every night around 1-2 in the morning to a loud banging noise. it sounded as if there was someone above us lifting and dropping a large dresser over and over for a couple hours every night. The first half of the cruise they told us it was maintenance...the second half, they had no idea what it was. so who knows. Not lots of service on the cruise, and the front desk can't actually help with anything so it was frustrating. The food was ok. nothing to write home about. I'll probably never cruise with Norwegian again, but oh well.
We did meet some fun people though. We met a brother and a sister who live in Guatemala, and who we hope to really visit someday. There was another couple who lives in Seattle who were really cool people. We hope to see them too when we are up in Seattle. (now that we have people who we consider family up there we will probably be up there a lot anyways). And there was some more people that were interesting/funny/fun.
Overall a great trip. And me and Petey still get along great, so you know it was a good trip! lol. It makes it way easier when you are traveling with someone you like, it makes an ok trip a good one. :D
So that's basically the trip, I'll have to add pics later hopefully.
The trip home was uneventful. Everything worked out fine. I don't think I will ever go to Miami though. People are very unhappy, mean people. but our flights were great, and our friends picked us up from the airport, no problems with baggage, etc. We drove home the following day after flying in, and drove back in the blizzard...close to 2 feet of snow in Carson and negative temperatures...quite a change from the tropical vacation but it's good to be back home.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
South Korea...
I wrote a blog on the airplane back about my trip...and I'm finally posting it.
Ah South Korea…My friend is there teaching English, so I thought what the heck, I can visit my friend and see South Korea. It was quite the experience and I decided I needed to blog about it. I’m on a plane right now, with 7 hours left, and one good typing hand. It’s gonna be long…I warned you.
Petey and I went to South Korea. My friend has a pretty good size apartment, and an extra mattress for us. She was working so we had dinner with her every night, and explored during the day. Day 1 – Cabs are cheap. We took them a lot because it was never more than 5,000 won for a ride. (about $4). Hardly anyone speaks English unless they are college age or younger, and had learned it. (which was still hard to find). And everything is in Korean with very few things in English. It is a little overwhelming not being able to understand anything. I’ve been to Germany and at least there you can sound out the words…business there must be owned (the majority of the business) by a Korean. There is no diversity, so we stuck out like sore thumbs. The people are amazing. Extremely nice and go to great lengths to help. It’s convicting because there are so many times we encounter foreigners in the US and instead of trying to help them we say they should learn English, like it is that easy. Try learning another language that is NOTHING like yours. Ok back to the trip, it was just a relaxing week of doing whatever we decided the night before. Our first day, first lunch was a sit on the floor place, and me and Petey pointed to soup that looked good on the menu, and hoped for the best. Lol. It was actually pretty good. Day 2- we went to school with Ashley to teach with her in the morning. The kids are funny. And way advanced compared to US kids. (well the majority). And the spoke pretty good English. On that note here’s a trivia. In the Korean language there are a couple letters that sound the same in Korean. B&P, L&R, and G&K. So it is very common for them to mix it up…therefore Petey called Ashley “Asherey” for most of the trip. Lol. But to them it is the same. ☺. The Koreans at Ashley’s school were awesome and helped us a lot with traveling.
Day 3 was one of the best days. We went to the DMZ. Demilitarization Zone. There was a few stops on the tour. One of them is on the line between North and South Korea. Along their border is the DMZ. It is a 4 Km area where each side protects their own country. In the middle is a bunch of buildings where half is on the North and half on the South. The buildings belong to one side or the other. Blue are South Korea’s buildings and tan are North Koreans. This is where the peace talks took place between them and other countries too including ours. This is where we went. To that room. We stood on the North Korean side of the building so technically I have been to North Korea, lol. The guards here stand all day staring their enemy in the face…and both sides are scary (obviously the north more). All South Korean men are actively in the military for at least 2 years and all have at least a black belt.
Day 4. Seoul, just wandering around and shopping. It was rainy. We saw a giant cathedral, and went to the Seoul Tower even tho it was too foggy to see anything. Then we did more underground shopping and bargain shopping.
Day 5 (Friday) we had a tour guide named Paul. Well, he actually didn’t know the area, but he did read and speak English and Korean so it was easy to get around. We went to a palace, I believe the biggest in the area. From there we had an awesome Korean meal. Just a ton of food really. We had a whole table full that we finished off, and I got up to use the restroom thinking we were done, and came back to a table full of new food. From there we went shopping and Petey found his wedding ring. It’s a silver hand-made ring. Super cool. Then we went to a little creek and off to meet Ashley and her friends and co-workers for a “dinner”….
Our engagement party- In Korea, they love love. And love marriage. So they surprised us at dinner. I got a bunch of the most beautiful roses you have ever seen. They bought cake and champagne, and the director of the school and her son, Paul, got us wooden ducks. In Korea, they symbolize love forever. ☺
From there we went to the “noribong”. They have rooms you rent by the hour for karaoke. It was fun.
Day 6- After a quick walk through Chinatown, and awesome Korean BBQ for lunch we headed to a baseball game. It was fun, cheering, making up what we thought they were chanting. And in the 7th inning stretch all us Americans (5 of us) stood up and sang “Take me out to the ball game” which ended with cheering and clapping. Then was out to an “western” bar. I almost beat a guy at pool even with my bum hand, and Petey rocked the drums.
That night was awesome and ended great and late at 5am…more on that later.
Our last day—we tried to get to a beach with no luck but did find a cool park. They were flying kites there and linking a bunch together, there had to have been hundreds of kites on one strand. From there we headed back to the apartment and then to the airport. Our flight was set to leave at 5:50…we got to the ticket counter at 5:20, and finally to the plane at 5:45…I live life on the edge…haha.
So that is our trip. I learned a lot. Like Petey and I are no longer allowed to drink Soju together because it makes us mean and overly sensitive. Good combo. It was so bad that we didn’t bring any back so we wouldn’t drink it…
The Koreans are nice people who band together to help each other. And there is hardly any crime. I think it is because of them wanting to help each other mixed with the fact that every male Korean has a black belt. Oh and you can buy waffles on the street that have like a honey butter on one side, chocolate cream on the other, and folded in half….heaven on earth.
Ok. Yeah there’s more…if you made it this far, congrats. Saturday night, some crazy stuff was happening, physically & spiritually. And it turned into a night of prayer with Petey, Ashley, her friend and Me. We were praying for Ash, and then were able to tell her friend about Jesus, and she was saved! It was really awesome. I hope to keep in touch and hear how her life changes through this. It was great to see hope at its finest. And love. And peace. And freedom. ☺
It was a great trip. Petey and I travel well together. Hanging out 24-7, we did great. And saw great stuff and met interesting people. I enjoyed Korea, and would recommend it to others.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
success!!!
so i went to a success seminar today. and as silly as it sounds, it was a lot of good information. and a lot of it aligned with God (just without mentioning God). a lot of it, i have been learning over the last few months. well similar ideas. it started with us writing what we are thankful for because "sometimes we forget about all the great things we have". i think a lot of us get down and want so much that we forget what God has already given us. The bible says to give thanks when you present your requests to God (Philippians 4:6 --- there may be others too, i dont know) and it makes me think, we shouldnt just keep asking and keep asking without remembering what He has given to you. another big component was speaking positive, smiling and using language that is positive. and not negative, even like "i won't fail my exam", turning that into "I will pass my test" or even "I passed my test". he talked about spending time talking yourself up and putting it in writing. ive recently been realizing how much what you say matters; over yourself and others. There is a pastor named Keith Moore in missouri who teaches often that if we believe that if we ask for something and speak good things we believe for it to happen. so the opposite has to happen too. if you speak negative, you are cursing yourself. We have also learned a lot at Hillside too that your words have real power, for good or for bad. for life or for death. good stuff. I liked it alot. and i liked that a lot of it is talked about in the bible, and there is a guy teaching that these are important, but without the emphasis of God. interesting.
my favorite thing i learned is smiling creates endorphins in the brain that make you happy, just as if you are happy you will naturally smile. so when you are feeling down, smile and it will make you feel better!!
my favorite thing i learned is smiling creates endorphins in the brain that make you happy, just as if you are happy you will naturally smile. so when you are feeling down, smile and it will make you feel better!!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
changing and feeeeeeling
my good friends just left to go live in hawaii. and even though i know i will see them again and talk to them a lot, it really hurt. and it hurt even more because i dont like feeling that pain. ive changed so much in the last few years and i feel like i can love better, and feel pain better. a friend helped show me that if i dont feel pain, i cant really feel great joy. most of my life i didnt feel. and now that i am feeling more and more, i wonder how many people i hurt, because i was hurting but couldn't see it. i dont look back and search, but its more of seeing out hurting i was, and i couldnt show that much love to people. i love people and i had lots of friends, but i also see now that i was not always loving to people that were close to me. and my friendships then were nothing compared to what i have now. some of those people are still my friends, through it all, but now our friendship is better. im thankful for friends, that i can call family. even though it hurt (and still hurts) to say bye to my friends, i have a real relationship with them, and they bring me real joy, and real happiness. and i will take the hurt to have the joy that they bring me. :D
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
the last lecture
I just got done watching the last lecture with Randy Pausch. he was a pretty neat guy. now i was multi-tasking while watching it but for the most part i loved what he had to say. what i got from it, live life to the fullest. And that the people who care most about you are sometimes the hardest on you. i love living life to its fullest. isnt that why Jesus died on the cross? it inspires me to keep trying. because you cant succeed if you dont try. it was interesting hearing him talk about the idea of dying, and comparing it to a game. you may be on a winning streak and able to battle through lots of obstacles, but if you lose the game, at least have fun playing and give it your all. another thing i loved was he would ask his kids every night what their favorite part of the day was and what the worst part of the day was. i like thinking about the best part of my day. i wrote a blog similar to this before, about my song. if in my life, my day was a song, what would i ask to God to play again. God sure is gracious and giving to me. i cant wait to see what else my life has in store.
the name of my blog, sometimes ya gotta be silly is really how i try to live my life. it seems like lately ive gotten down and out of it. im still having fun, but man, i could have so much more! and why not! im still young, but when my time does come, i want people to enjoy stories of me and them just doing crazy or silly things. i want to see everything. even though i have an awful memory. i think its getting better. i wanna see the elephant!! haha. i dont remember where i heard that but its true. i want to see the things you just dont normally see. i want to travel and see crazy cool sites. i think thats why i love photography. there are so many beautiful things everywhere i go, and by taking pictures i take that experience with me too. i wonder what my next adventure will be....
:D
the name of my blog, sometimes ya gotta be silly is really how i try to live my life. it seems like lately ive gotten down and out of it. im still having fun, but man, i could have so much more! and why not! im still young, but when my time does come, i want people to enjoy stories of me and them just doing crazy or silly things. i want to see everything. even though i have an awful memory. i think its getting better. i wanna see the elephant!! haha. i dont remember where i heard that but its true. i want to see the things you just dont normally see. i want to travel and see crazy cool sites. i think thats why i love photography. there are so many beautiful things everywhere i go, and by taking pictures i take that experience with me too. i wonder what my next adventure will be....
:D
Friday, June 06, 2008
a new chapter??
so i have a new roommate! her name is shayla and she comes with swazy, a 3 year old black lab. I LOVE having two dogs in my house! many think that two dogs is a little much and more crazy, but now when i leave parker at home,
she has a friend. swazy is an awesome dog and he is really well behaved. and both dogs just love each other. parker now sleeps next to my bedroom door rather than on my bed, just in case swazy is up and ready to play. its relaxing. and even now i can just sit and watch them play instead of parker needing me to play with her late at nite. i have one video of them running around a little on my youtube. there will be more soon im sure. youtube.com/debi1016
im hoping life at home slows down a little and is a little more relaxing on the nerves. :D
she has a friend. swazy is an awesome dog and he is really well behaved. and both dogs just love each other. parker now sleeps next to my bedroom door rather than on my bed, just in case swazy is up and ready to play. its relaxing. and even now i can just sit and watch them play instead of parker needing me to play with her late at nite. i have one video of them running around a little on my youtube. there will be more soon im sure. youtube.com/debi1016
im hoping life at home slows down a little and is a little more relaxing on the nerves. :D
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